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funny things about bitter boys....
1:55 pm - 04.02.03

i think the funniest thing in the world is how a girl all of a sudden turns into a "psycho" when she realizes what a loser the guy she's had it for is. i mean seriously... we weren't psycho when you were getting what you wanted. granted... 98%, probably 99% of girls ARE psycho... but just because a girl tells you how she feels, in a mature way, does that make her a psycho? i think not. guys tend to forget the fact that we have feelings too... we actually put ourselves and our hearts into most relationships. just because you don't get your way or the girl finally realizes you're not the right guy doesn't make her psycho. and just because she's brave enough to call you on it and all your lies doesn't make her psycho either... it makes her smart...it makes her independent... it makes her strong... it makes her far from psycho. when you have about 5 distinctively different personalities and you say mean things to try and get your way or you try to pressure someone into something they don't want... i would say that makes you PSYCHO. and another thing... for the 1 to 2% of girls that aren't psycho... if they happen to go psycho on a guy, it's more than 99.9% likely you made her psycho. marinate on that for a while.

i despise liars more than anything in the world. i despise people who try to play like they're the victim all the time. you know... you're not the only one in the world that has problems... i'll admit, i let my problems control me for a while...but you know what? i'm tired of living like that. i'm tired of being afraid of being hurt... 'cause everyone gets hurt and everyone gets burned... it's how you deal with it and move on that makes you a better person. living in the past sucks... and having your past thrown in your face is a cheap shot. if that's the kind of stuff you have to resort to to make yourself feel better then so be it. just leave me out of it.... you want to be lonely and miserable and hurt for the rest of your life? well then hold it against someone else... i doubt the person that i'm talking to will ever even read this... but all i have to say is you're an immature asshole and you don't fight fairly. you're so caught up in the way you see things that you can't take 2 seconds to see the truth and how things really are. you're a loser and all you want to do is hurt people and make them feel bad about themselves. well, it looks like you're gonna have to find someone else to lie to ...'cause i'm done listening to all the bullshit. thank you...buhbye...

still, i have yet to figure out what i've ever done that karma would have me meet these truly psychotic people ... well, it doesn't matter....this month is all about spring cleaning and taking the trash out. (: it's time to appreciate the good things that have taken a seat on the backburner to what seemed like a sure thing. it's kinda like when you buy a new shirt... you love the new shirt and wanna wear it all the time... nonetheless, eventually you get tired of it or you remember how much you loved that old shirt... and you always go back to the old shirt...the comfortable shirt... the shirt that's been through everything with you... that's not to say the new shirt can't become your favorite old shirt too... that takes time though ... anypoo... enough of this shirt talk.... i've let some people down and i'm sorry. it's time to take the truly special things out of the boxes, dust them off and put them up on the shelf for everyone to see... the place where they belong. and it's time to throw away the "cool, shiny, new" things, that are only fun for a while to make room for the things that really matter... family and TRUE friends.

i've been so ecstatic the past few days... 'cause with all these new revelations... no matter how much they hurt at the time... i'm seeing that it's great to be me... and i'm discovering the things that truly make me happy and that are truly important in my life. you've gotta love that ....it's not that i didn't know before...i think i just took it all for granted. i was too caught up in being miserable and wondering why certain things were happening or why certain things have happened, that i couldn't see just how many good things and people i have in my life. that's all that matters. the rest is history and garbage.

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